Life is a blur, isn't it?
And when you can't help but wonder why you're even here, remember:
I will miss you when I leave, in the eternal journey.
I will miss you when I remember you, and our memories.
I will miss you, until the day you meet me in the wonderlands.
He couldn't have said those things. Not once has he said those things to me, not once has he meant them. He has never been there for me, but I was always there. Always, always, always there for him. And he left me.
"Leslie," Pieter sits at my shoulder, he's probably trying to comfort me, but it's not working. "I know that…" He pauses, taking short, quick breaths. He's doing better than me, I'll say. "I know it's hard, okay? You don't have to do this alone."
"I'm fine!" I say, with an obviously fake smile, and a sticky layer of fake happiness. I feel oppressed. "But, I - no - we have our jobs, we need to keep up. -"
"- The world sweeps by us, under our feet. -"
"- The longer we wait, the further it will be. -"
"- The further we will be, from our hope. - "
"- From our life." I finish. "William Brand, A Journey, Yet but a Second." I sight softly, more out of the relief of a feeling, of a weight I didn't even know I had, "Thank you, Pieter."
"What can I say?" He chuckles, tears streaming down his face, "They're my favorite author."
"Hey," I say.
"What is it?" Pieter responds.
"I want to finish what he started."
No, this can't be. I can't just let this happen. I can't blame them. I can't, I know I can't. I crumple up the letter and throw it on the ground. Tearing up as I stare into my ceiling, in the dark. Alone with my thoughts.
To: Leslie Haywood
From: Amelia Hanley
Unfortunately, we must deny your M.E.G. Researcher Internship application. Although you show promise in the primary characteristics we are looking for in said position, we cannot give you it. Looking at your history in the Internal Security Department, you show the utmost excellence in your standards of performance. Us at the M.E.G. would like to keep you in your position.
…
According to our interviews of your peers, we know that you show excellence in teaching new members of the Internal Security Department. That leads us to our next point: we would like to promote you to a team captain. Due to unfortunate circumstances, we have not promote you sooner, but hopefully this can make up for the fact that we cannot give you the position.
[See the attached files for more information on your new position.]